Fat as Hell…

and not going to take it anymore!

Pressing On

I’m not always right, and maybe it’s a little crazy to say it out loud, but sometimes I think I can honestly feel when I’ve gained even a little bit of weight. It may just be a pound or two, but I swear, I can feel those pounds hanging off of me… dragging me down.

The reason this seems a little crazy, is because, let’s face it, when you weigh 250lbs + 1 or 2 more pounds can’t possibly make that much difference. After all, 1 or 2 pounds represents such a small part of the whole. Nonetheless, when I gain, it’s usually not a surprise. I can feel it.

And I can feel it now.

Of course, I won’t weigh until tomorrow, but I feel it coming. Hopefully, I’ll be pleasantly surprised. But I doubt it.
That said, even if I am up tomorrow, I’ll be more bemused than anything else because it’s really been a pretty good week. I’ve kept up with my calendar all week. I’ve totally met my exercise goals for the week and while I’ve gone over my calories several times, it hasn’t been by *that* much. There’s been no binging… just an extra Starbucks here and there to throw me over the edge.


Truth is, I’ve been feeling pretty good. Like I’m “back” after my long hiatus from not having the energy to care much about whether or not I was on plan. I truly started the week trying to come up with plausible excuses that I could use at the end of the week in order to explain why I *hadn’t* made my exercise goals. But guess what? No excuses needed. I was an exercising fool. In fact, I exercised *more* than the goals I’d set for myself, and if I’m *really* honest, then I have to admit that there might have been a few minutes when it actually felt good. (Shhh. Don’t tell anyone).

So… *if* I am up tomorrow, I’m just going to blame it on hormones, the tides, a full moon and/or my mother-in-law and move on. Apart from eating a little better, I don’t think I can really ask more of myself than what I was able to give this week.

Sometimes, I guess, no matter how hard you try, the numbers just don’t add up.

Anyway, in non-gee-I’m-really-fat related news, if you get a chance to see Persepolis, I strongly suggest that you do. It’s achingly beautiful.

April 4, 2008 Posted by | losing weight | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 4 Comments


273.8 – 268.2 = -5.6lbs
But, more importantly, 268.2lbs means that I have *finally* hit the 50lbs gone marker!

I suppose that the number 50 shouldn’t be any more exciting than the number 45 or 55, but it does feel like a milestone.
50 pounds gone.
Never to return again.

*doing happy dance*

Here’s to the *next* 50!


In other news, I made a smashing acorn squash stuffed with brown rice for dinner tonight, and it was such a hit I thought I would post the recipe here:

1 medium acorn squash
1 tbls honey
1 cup (uncooked) long grain brown rice
2 cups water (water amount subject to change depending on what type of rice you use)
1 tsp herbs de provence
1 tbls flat leaf parsley (finely chopped)
1 tbls low fat sour cream
2 tbls milk (I used 2% but you could easily use skim)
salt and pepper to taste

Mix rice, water and herbs de provence and then cook as directed (it takes about 45 minutes in my rice cooker).
Meanwhile, preheat oven to 400′.
Then slice squash in half lengthwise, and scrape out seeds and stringy inside bits (discard).
Place squash face down in an oven proof dish that has been filled with approximately 1/4″ water.
Bake squash for approx 40 minutes or until the inside is tender when pierced with a fork.
As soon as the rice is finished, toss gently with sour cream, milk, salt, pepper and parsley. Set aside under very, very low heat just to keep warm until squash is finished.
When squash is finished, remove from oven, turn over in pan. Drizzle flesh with honey and place under broiler for about 5 minutes or until golden on top.
Stuff squash with rice mixture and enjoy!

This recipe makes enough for 2 people, so you’ll have to adjust the ingredients for the number of people you’re serving. Honestly, I wish I’d taken a picture of it because, not only did it taste yummy, but it also looked quite elegant. Maybe next time. :)

**Note:  The dish contains approx 360 calories per serving.  Sorry to all you Weight Watchers out there, but I have no idea how many points that is. :) 

January 21, 2008 Posted by | Uncategorized | , , , , , , , , , | 11 Comments