Fat as Hell…

and not going to take it anymore!

Pedometer Challenge: Week 2 Wrap-Up + HYC Update

Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at PhotobucketMan, this has been a busy week. But a good one. Before I get into my good news report, here are my pedometer numbers for the week:

Sunday through Saturday, respectively

And today…

Totals:

Weekly total (I’m not including today in the weekly total): 90,254 steps
Daily Average for Week 2: 12,893 steps
2 Week Combined Total: 184, 216 steps
Daily Combined Average: 13,158 (this average includes my *bonus* steps from the first week)

Gosh. All this stepping is sure paying off in a number of ways. First of all, on Friday I had a long awaited doctor’s appointment. Anyone whose been reading this blog for any length of time knows that I have a love/hate relationship with my doctor and that a visit to his office, nearly a year ago now, is one of the things that most put a fire under my ass to finally start taking off the weight. Since then, I’ve been back to the doctor a few more times, and each time I go, I’m more and more determined to prove to him that I *can* lose enough weight to be taken off of the blood pressure and cholesterol medicine that he started me on last July.

Unfortunately, this kind of motivation sometimes leads to crazy behavior on my part.

For example, *knowing* that this appointment was coming up, I started weighing myself all the time. April arrived, and the moment I turned the page on the calendar and saw that doctor’s appointment looming, I went into scale overload. I found myself weighing every day, sometimes multiple times a day. I was so determined to show a “big loss” when I got to the doctor’s office, that I swiftly flew into obsession mode — which, let me just tell you, isn’t a nice place to be.

Anyway, after a week or so of this, I decided that I’d never make it to the end of the month, if I kept obsessing… so I just stopped weighing all together.

I thought… fuck it. I’m already doing everything I can to make myself healthy, stepping on and off the scale isn’t going to do anything except make me feel bad. So, I put the scale away for the rest of the month. I didn’t announce my decision here because, frankly, I wasn’t sure I’d be able to stick with it, but within a few days, I’d stopped thinking about the scale at all and was, therefore, able to focus on the business of actually taking care of myself. Imagine that! :)

So… Friday came and I went into the appointment blind. I didn’t even weigh myself that morning. “It is what it is,” I thought as I drove myself there and sat in the waiting room, vowing not to hate myself too much if I hadn’t lost any weight or even if, heaven forbid, I’d gained.

But then something amazing happened when I stepped on the scale in his office.

*drumroll please*

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244.4lbs.

Now, the last time I posted my weight here, I was 254lbs. Since then I know I’ve popped up a couple of pounds and then back down one or two, until the week that I finally decided to stop weighing altogether.

But now I’m 244.4lbs. :)

I’ve decided to round it down to 244 even and call it a 10lb loss because, well… just because I want to. I realize, of course that’ll mean that I don’t get to spend any time enjoying the 70lbs lost badge, but somehow, I’ll manage, I think.

But wait!
That’s not even the best part!

The best part is that during my visit, the doctor said that the *next* time I visit (in 6 months) that we’ll look at reducing the dosage of the blood pressure medication — the first step in, essentially, weaning me off it completely.

I simply cannot tell you how ecstatic that makes me. Getting off this medication was, and continues to be, such a motivator for me. I don’t want to take *any* kind of medication for the rest of my life.

I’m only 37.

I just want my body to reflect my real age and not all the years I’ve added to my life by being obese. I know lots of people who spend all their time thinking about what they will look like once they finally reach their goal weight… and don’t get me wrong, of course, I think about that too. But the truth is, what I want most is to be healthy. And I don’t think that’s any more noble of a goal than the goal of just wanting to look hot in normal sized clothes… it’s just a different goal. (Though, looking hot wouldn’t be too shabby either, now that I think about it!) For me, getting off the meds and being healthy is the light at the end of the tunnel. I don’t know what weight that will be or what being at that weight will look like… I just know that I’m not going to allow being fat to kill me. And when I finally reach the point where I can say goodbye to the medication and where I start feeling and acting like someone who is only 37, well… *that’s* when I will have reached my goal.

Anyway, Friday was a good day.

But then again, Saturday was a pretty good day too. On Saturday a package arrived at my door containing these gorgeous earrings, which were hand made for me by the utterly fabulous Paola. What’s really cool about them, I mean, besides the fact that they’re absolutely beautiful, is that Paola sneakily asked me what colors I liked and then crafted the whole gift around my response – with pretty orange paper around the box, tied with a blue ribbon. So cute!

And the card read: “Keep on walking!”

Now, I ask you. Seriously. Does it really get any better than that?

It’s funny, you know… even writing all this out, it feels like it’s not really even happening to me. I mean, as hard as I’ve worked and as much as I’ve wanted to prove other people wrong about how much I will be able to accomplish, the truth is, I don’t think I ever really expected to lose 75lbs. Sure, I’ve tried to stay positive, and I can’t even count the number of times each day I have to remind myself that I *can* do this, but the truth is I’m usually far *less* surprised when I fail.

I wonder what it is about me that causes me to expect so little from myself.

Anyway… it was a good week here, folks. I hope yours was equally fantastic.

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May 4, 2008 - Posted by | pedometer challenge, weigh day | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , ,

20 Comments »

  1. Gosh. I am very impressed. I was wondering this week how much more weight you’d lost as the blog side stats have said 65lbs lost for a while.

    10lbs more is amazing!

    You said “it feels like it’s not really even happening to me”. I thought that too about me but, in both our cases, it’s not happening TO us, WE’RE the ones making it happen.

    I know you’ve avoided stating a long-term target weight but I wonder whether you’d consider a medium-term goal of 199lbs. It’d be interesting to see a progress ticker and graph.

    You know, you’ve lost more weight than I have left to lose. Your success encourages me to think that it is achievable.

    I’m glad you like the earrings. Thanks for the link!

    And keep up the good work!

    Comment by Paola | May 5, 2008 | Reply

  2. Wow, wow, wow….

    Comment by Jenny | May 5, 2008 | Reply

  3. You rock J2F! Great numbers on both the scale and the pedometers. And what great news from the Doc! All round a good week.

    Comment by AndrewE | May 5, 2008 | Reply

  4. I am so pleased for you and proud of you! Well done! And all those steps!

    Comment by hanlie | May 5, 2008 | Reply

  5. *blush*

    Thanks, guys! :)

    j

    Comment by justoofat | May 5, 2008 | Reply

  6. What a fantastic week!!! Those are excellent results! I’m trying to get off the BP meds, too, so I *know* how ecstatic you are over that news! Talk about a big carrot! LOL

    Keep up the great work! You’re doing AMAZING things for yourself!

    Comment by Cammy | May 5, 2008 | Reply

  7. FANTASTIC! You’re a real inspiration!

    Comment by fatbridesmaid | May 5, 2008 | Reply

  8. Wow! 75 pounds?? Great job! What an awesome motivation to keep you on track for May!

    Comment by Sunny | May 5, 2008 | Reply

  9. You totally rock, on many levels. Great walking, great being able NOT to step on that silly scale and great losing all those pounds. More than that you are a great motivation to me to keep moving and trying to get off those meds myself. I’ve been on blood pressure meds for about 3 years now, since my late late 30’s. Keep up the great work!

    Comment by Big Girl | May 5, 2008 | Reply

  10. Woo-hoo!!!! You ROCK! Congratulations!! :-)

    Comment by Kathy | May 5, 2008 | Reply

  11. Paola: You’re right, of course. It’s not happening TO us. Very good point. As for the ticker. I’ve looked at those before, but it will come to no surprise to you that I’m a bit on the fence about them. Seriously. It’s a wonder I get *anything* done! :)

    Cammy: The meds *are* a big carrot… and one that I know you understand. But we’re getting there, girl! Of course, you’re getting there a lot faster than I am! :)

    FBM: Thanks! But *you* started this whole thing, dear. The pedometer challenge has been so awesome for me. Thanks!

    Sunny, Big Girl and Kathy: Thank you so much! You guys are the best!

    Cheers!
    j

    Comment by justoofat | May 5, 2008 | Reply

  12. Wow! There is a lot going on with you.

    First off, congrats on the 75 pounds! You are doing so incredibly well.

    Secondly, getting off the medication is a FABULOUS THING! Soon you won’t need it anymore.

    Comment by Irene | May 5, 2008 | Reply

  13. Thank so much, Irene… I do feel like something of a rockstar. Though, it’s not like I’m planning on running a TRIATHLON or anything (*ahem*) :)

    j

    Comment by justoofat | May 6, 2008 | Reply

  14. Awesome! 75 pounds, and so many steps-you’re doing fab!

    Comment by Skinny Inside | May 6, 2008 | Reply

  15. FANTASTIC!!! You are doing so well and I can hear a ‘bounce’ in your writing voice… you sound very motivated and happy. Keep up the great work… and have a wonderful week.

    Comment by julia | May 6, 2008 | Reply

  16. Congratulations!! Great Job. Helps motivate me!!!

    Fatboyslimmed

    Comment by fatboyslimmed | May 6, 2008 | Reply

  17. GIRL! That is awesome! BTW you are totally kicking my butt in the pedometer challenge! You are so amazing and lowering the dosage of your meds…you are gonna be off them in no time!

    Comment by ready2shrink | May 6, 2008 | Reply

  18. Great job! That is fantastic! 75 pounds! For me, when I got below 250, I was at my children’s pediatrician, and not having to move the “big weight” over the extra 50 pounds made me cry!

    It’s funny what actually pushes us to make the change.

    Comment by SeriouslyKaren | May 6, 2008 | Reply

  19. Congrats! so much WONDERFUL news! I’m so happy for you… for everything!

    Comment by Kate | May 8, 2008 | Reply

  20. Can I just say.. WOWSERS!! You are doing amazing!!! You must feel just SUPER!! I am so thrilled for you!!!

    Keep up the inspiring work!!

    *huggles*
    =0)

    Comment by Felicia | May 8, 2008 | Reply


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